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improve that aspect of his marriage, M. will better acce me. Currently she dispises me, calling me a creature, pervert, crazy, sick, etc. She did finally agree to let me live, but only away from home. So, I accompany my brother on some, not all, of his business trips, securely folded into a suitcase. She vows I can never meet their son, and I don't have any particular urge to meet him.

I have decided to tell my mother, my brother's real brother and the older ex-girl friend about me. I am not attractive enough or skilled enough to pass, and so go out only rarely, such as Mardi Gras, or returning home from a friend's house at night. I do not feel that it is essential to chase around dressed all over the countryside just in order to be an FP. Nor do I feel we must per- manently be closet cases. We can enjoy such experience as parties, resorts like Susanna's, visits to friends' home Mardi Gras and many other experiences where we can be with people and yet not in public danger.

I have already gotten a world of good out of TVia, Virginia, and most of all, FPE. I have met many other FP's and have gained insight and experience from each contact. The more FP's I meet, the more I learn about myself. I am beginning to understand more about why I am an FP. I'm sure that I am seeking to a certain extent the affection and attention I never got from my father, and that I am the means to this end for my brother. Won are attractive and desirable to men, therefore I can be attractive and desirable and in a sense satisfy this need of attractiveness and desirability which my brother, as a man, cannot display.

In FPE, too, I get so much pleasure from meeting a. helping FP's. Have you ever been the first FP another has ever met? It is a great feeling, to watch them dis- cover that you too are really fairly normal, do not have a lot of far out ideas and in short are no more of a weird than they are.

I am convinced that only through FPE are we going to be able to make one dent in this world of misunder- standing we live in. Right now I am working diligently on a project of public education in my own state. If this pilot project is successful, I hope to expand it. I am